...Now only fourteen left to go"

First of all, I haven't written in ages because my mac has been on the blink.  It's getting sorted but I'm using the boyfriends laptop for now to write this blog.

Everything is a bit up in the air at the mo, what with long hours of freelance work, no computer and me trying to sort out permanent work.  Stressful is not even close to the word.

I have been doing the same as many others are, trying to sort out permanent work so I don't have to constantly stress about paying the bills and to have some goals and aims to head for.

I have been doing all kinds of applications recently, mainly for office based roles but a few other random jobs have been thrown in their too.  You see I have been doing dressing work for ages and I do enjoy it but I now want to push some of my other skills and stay in one work place for once : )

Today I went for a 2nd interview for a job I really want.  I always find these ones the worse, as I tend to mess up and never really know how I've done.  In the past, most of the jobs I have been asked to second interviews for are for roles I decide I don't want (either after meeting the people or finding out about the company).  This must be the first 2nd interview I have ever been to and I don't know if I like them.  The reason being you are so much closer to getting the job yet still so far away.   Although I nearly went through a wire fence by accident  when trying to get to my boyfriends house, which is probably why I feel sick, I think the other reason is because I feel I messed up the interview and have no other permanent work in the pipeline - I feel like I'm crying inside and it's RUBBISH!!!

You see in this age we have to be strong however bad times are and sometimes its just too hard.  So that's where my chocolate,cakes and food indulgence comes into play : s

For tonight I have decided though not to think about it anymore and move on - who knows what tomorrow brings.  For now I am just going to enjoy the food my boyfriend has cooked, watched some tele and chill.

Today's title is from one of the first songs by the fab Athlete - Out of Nowhere:  www.youtube.com/watch?v=CNl-mUqedxc

"22 grand job, in the city it's alright..."

I just got in from a lovely meal with my mate Verrall to find out I have a 2nd interview for a job I want.  I was so happy and shocked (because the jobs I  really want don't ever seem to come to fruition) that I nearly cried on the train - embarrassing!


I'll explain.  I have worked in the Arts for over 10 years now (with a few mini gaps here and there) and sometimes I still feel back at step 1.  The problem is because I have never been one for long term goals (mainly because I like variety in my work and haven't had that one thing I've really wanted, more like 10, lol), freelance work tended to suit me in the past.  It was great  because I could do lots of different jobs, work with different companies, have no problem getting time to myself (just didn't book work when I wanted to be off) and got to party and socialise around the lifestyle.  The problem is that freelance work also means being poor at certain points in the year (if the works not there), constantly looking for work and never being able to plan more than a few months ahead in worry that important well paid work would come up.


In the last couple of years my ideas of work have changed.  I've spent ages doing heavy duty stuff, long irregular hours and working for low wages - I want a decent wage and lifestyle because I'm 29!  There's nothing wrong with that!


The thing is I've done so many applications and interviews now I'm confused what skills and tactics are the magic to getting a job.  I have so much to offer yet I don't know what to do to get paid for it - arrrrrggggghhhh!!!!  Recently I have become more creative in my applications by having faint background pictures on my CV, designing stylish borders and my newest thing, the video CV.  For someone like me where my skills partially come from practical skills/experience I need evidence not a plain piece of paper to prove my worth.  It also comes in handy that I do sound and video editing, as I did this myself (the music was even two tracks I had merged on my own home equipment - creative is what I was going for : p).


The problem is, for every 20 applications you send out, you are lucky if you even get one email back - people are getting so awful at even emailing you to say you've been unsuccessful (I HATE rude people!)  I've interviewed people for internships and we always got back to them, even if we weren't able to use them:  It's courteous and it is not difficult!


The worse thing is it doesn't get any easier the older you get and that is VERY annoying!  I would have thought nearly 14 years on since applying for my first job I would be ready for what ever interviewees throw at me but all that has happened is I have become slightly more confident in the process and maybe I care less (the more you worry the worse the interview normally goes) as it's easier that way.


All I will say to all of you who are looking for work is persevere til you succeed!  I have experienced a whole roller coaster of emotions over the last five years but I feel I am finally nearer to what I am looking for and I am not willing to give up.  I have faith in you all - find your dreams and don't let the recession get in your way!

If you haven't noticed by now, all my posts have lyrics or titles from songs (will go back and update all the posts so they have links to any songs where possible at the end of the post). This is because I like using famous lyrics creatively and due to my love of music, know a ton of songs from different genres and eras.   Today's title comes from the great track by The Rakes's  22 Grand Job - have a gander! :


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=flESd2vFXy4