Isn't it weird how important things in your life just seem to change over time. My boyfriend and I have been together nearly 7 years and when we first got together the excitement of jumping each others bones (yeah, I'm being dirty, lol) was thrilling and frequent. Now it is still very enjoyable, but different (in a good way, as in you know the person really well and your more comfortable with them than when you first dated) and not that often.
Now there is no one to blame about this apart from ourselves. Like many of us, work has taken over our lives and everything else seems to have taken a back seat - something I am not happy about and want to change!
First problem is definitely the fact that we live in London. London may have everything you need and be open 24 hours, but that is the exact reason it is a problem - we work in an industry where people want to be entertained all the time. Due to both of us working in the Arts, we do not work regular hours and our shifts can go from 7am to past midnight (any day of the week). And this is without the crazy travel we do (I had a job recently where I had to go to Wembley and one way it took over 2 hrs to get there : s) It's hard enough spending time together just to see each other, let alone anything else.
Second problem is our actual jobs. We both have times when we get told the day before that we have to do an extra shift or day and have to change our plans. Most the time we work around it, but it is still annoying - I have missed weddings, birthdays, Christmas parties etc for this : (
The thing is, even when we want to do "stuff" we are tired and so it's best not to do anything than it be rubbish and leave it to another day - sometimes I also feel flirty but not dirty and that's cack too. It's so complicated!
My boyfriend and I were talking about "the future" (that scary adult talk that occurs around this age) and he was talking about having children. Now, he's a little younger than me (by a year or so), which is good, because when I actually became an adult (not 18 when you can drink and think your grown up), I realised I wanted some kind of career before children and that it would take a few more years for him to want any. But there's a few other things asides from career I want before this: at least once where we get to go on a mini travelling expedition (a couple of months will do, to learn how to drive (yes, I'm a loser - actually no, I live in London, why drive, it's too expensive) to have more fun sex before it becomes "planned" sex (lol) and a signed agreement that the babies we have don't turn my tight special place into a cave - sounds wrong, but I'm currently happy with it down there, lol. The thing is, he is now interested in having kids in the next couple of years and I don't know if it is cos I am getting older, he is or both of us are. I didn't really think that guys worried about getting too old for kids, until I read the article "Hear that? It's my boyological clock ticking!" in Glamour.
Russell Kane wrote a rather interesting piece about wanting kids but having not met the right women yet. He suggests that men have a boyological clock, it's just in their brains rather than in their organs and that they like the idea of being an active young dad, than a tottering middle aged man. The thing is, he suggests, that most men don't realise until they are already past they're ideal age and it's too late.
I have to say, if this is the case, I'll have to start taking my fella more seriously. I do want kids but the moment has to be right - after all I'm the one with 9 possible months of agony and then a kid for life. You can't just say yes on a whim!
I do know that although I am career minded, I have my mother's nature for wanting kids and have become a bit broody at times (cute little girls at wedding, the young dads dancing round with their tiny sons, a baby's laugh - there is just something about it that I want). However, first he better put a ring on it (power to Beyonce) and then I will reconsider in time. I'm not even 30 yet, there's time and much more fun to be had first : )
Blog title comes from the one and only, cheesily good, STEPS: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QnN3YATAe7o
I actually saw them live recently at one of their reunion shows and here's one of the pics : )
Now there is no one to blame about this apart from ourselves. Like many of us, work has taken over our lives and everything else seems to have taken a back seat - something I am not happy about and want to change!
First problem is definitely the fact that we live in London. London may have everything you need and be open 24 hours, but that is the exact reason it is a problem - we work in an industry where people want to be entertained all the time. Due to both of us working in the Arts, we do not work regular hours and our shifts can go from 7am to past midnight (any day of the week). And this is without the crazy travel we do (I had a job recently where I had to go to Wembley and one way it took over 2 hrs to get there : s) It's hard enough spending time together just to see each other, let alone anything else.
Second problem is our actual jobs. We both have times when we get told the day before that we have to do an extra shift or day and have to change our plans. Most the time we work around it, but it is still annoying - I have missed weddings, birthdays, Christmas parties etc for this : (
The thing is, even when we want to do "stuff" we are tired and so it's best not to do anything than it be rubbish and leave it to another day - sometimes I also feel flirty but not dirty and that's cack too. It's so complicated!
My boyfriend and I were talking about "the future" (that scary adult talk that occurs around this age) and he was talking about having children. Now, he's a little younger than me (by a year or so), which is good, because when I actually became an adult (not 18 when you can drink and think your grown up), I realised I wanted some kind of career before children and that it would take a few more years for him to want any. But there's a few other things asides from career I want before this: at least once where we get to go on a mini travelling expedition (a couple of months will do, to learn how to drive (yes, I'm a loser - actually no, I live in London, why drive, it's too expensive) to have more fun sex before it becomes "planned" sex (lol) and a signed agreement that the babies we have don't turn my tight special place into a cave - sounds wrong, but I'm currently happy with it down there, lol. The thing is, he is now interested in having kids in the next couple of years and I don't know if it is cos I am getting older, he is or both of us are. I didn't really think that guys worried about getting too old for kids, until I read the article "Hear that? It's my boyological clock ticking!" in Glamour.
Russell Kane wrote a rather interesting piece about wanting kids but having not met the right women yet. He suggests that men have a boyological clock, it's just in their brains rather than in their organs and that they like the idea of being an active young dad, than a tottering middle aged man. The thing is, he suggests, that most men don't realise until they are already past they're ideal age and it's too late.
I have to say, if this is the case, I'll have to start taking my fella more seriously. I do want kids but the moment has to be right - after all I'm the one with 9 possible months of agony and then a kid for life. You can't just say yes on a whim!
I do know that although I am career minded, I have my mother's nature for wanting kids and have become a bit broody at times (cute little girls at wedding, the young dads dancing round with their tiny sons, a baby's laugh - there is just something about it that I want). However, first he better put a ring on it (power to Beyonce) and then I will reconsider in time. I'm not even 30 yet, there's time and much more fun to be had first : )
Blog title comes from the one and only, cheesily good, STEPS: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QnN3YATAe7o
I actually saw them live recently at one of their reunion shows and here's one of the pics : )
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