So today is just under a month until I turn 30 : s Boy how fast time has gone since I started writing this blog - it seemed so far away!
So how do I feel? A little nervous, a little frustrated but overall not too bad. The main problem is it's hard enough realising that your in your late 20s, but trying to think that I'll be joining the 30 somethings soon is mind boggling! There's nothing wrong with it (many of my friends are older than me) but it just doesn't seem right. Why me! Where did my 20s go?
Overall, I have just not been thinking about (which is the best thing for it) but it's hard for it not to slip back in there.
You see, my problem is, I still feel that I haven't achieved enough before this birthday and one month is just not enough time to do it all in. I know that I won't turn 30 and be trapped in my house apart from going to work, but for some reason, that's how my mind sees it.
I know many girlfriends of mine that have got passed the 30 mark, so there is light past the birthday, but I'm still scared : s
I think the thing that made me think of it the other day, was the change that I will need to make to the title of this block. It is currently Route to Thirty and I have decided I am enjoying writing it so much that I don't want it to end, but the title needs to change. I want it to have the same chatty, blog manner where I natter about life but I will be past 30. Do I really want it to be Route to 40? That makes me feel even older so soon from this first great shock. But what else am I heading towards. I'm not planning on having children at the moment, I'm not getting married and I hope to have a proper job soon so don't want it to be Route to Work (that and it sounds lame). It will be a Route to something I just don't know what. Maybe to growing up? Maybe I don't want to do that yet.
That's the main problem, I don't want to grow up! I prefer my life as an adult but now want to stay this age (kind of like an adult Peter Pan, lol). I don't want to be the old one in the club that still likes dancing to hits - it makes me sad, I will always like dancing!
I know I'm probably looking into this too much but hey ho, I'm a woman hitting the 30 sign without being able to drive - it just doesn't seem right!
Well, for now, I'm going to stay in denial and watch some Mad Men which makes me feel sophisticated, young and on the pulse. If your not watching it, you just don't know what your missing!
To cheer us all up, my title today is from one of my favourite musicals of all time, The Rocky Horror Show. So get your dancing boots on and click the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=opOsgzzDPdw&feature=related
So how do I feel? A little nervous, a little frustrated but overall not too bad. The main problem is it's hard enough realising that your in your late 20s, but trying to think that I'll be joining the 30 somethings soon is mind boggling! There's nothing wrong with it (many of my friends are older than me) but it just doesn't seem right. Why me! Where did my 20s go?
Overall, I have just not been thinking about (which is the best thing for it) but it's hard for it not to slip back in there.
You see, my problem is, I still feel that I haven't achieved enough before this birthday and one month is just not enough time to do it all in. I know that I won't turn 30 and be trapped in my house apart from going to work, but for some reason, that's how my mind sees it.
I know many girlfriends of mine that have got passed the 30 mark, so there is light past the birthday, but I'm still scared : s
I think the thing that made me think of it the other day, was the change that I will need to make to the title of this block. It is currently Route to Thirty and I have decided I am enjoying writing it so much that I don't want it to end, but the title needs to change. I want it to have the same chatty, blog manner where I natter about life but I will be past 30. Do I really want it to be Route to 40? That makes me feel even older so soon from this first great shock. But what else am I heading towards. I'm not planning on having children at the moment, I'm not getting married and I hope to have a proper job soon so don't want it to be Route to Work (that and it sounds lame). It will be a Route to something I just don't know what. Maybe to growing up? Maybe I don't want to do that yet.
That's the main problem, I don't want to grow up! I prefer my life as an adult but now want to stay this age (kind of like an adult Peter Pan, lol). I don't want to be the old one in the club that still likes dancing to hits - it makes me sad, I will always like dancing!
I know I'm probably looking into this too much but hey ho, I'm a woman hitting the 30 sign without being able to drive - it just doesn't seem right!
Well, for now, I'm going to stay in denial and watch some Mad Men which makes me feel sophisticated, young and on the pulse. If your not watching it, you just don't know what your missing!
To cheer us all up, my title today is from one of my favourite musicals of all time, The Rocky Horror Show. So get your dancing boots on and click the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=opOsgzzDPdw&feature=related
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